Damn near everything in our marriage is equal... Except levels of dating experience.
I have had more relationships, but I can tell you more isn't "better." It just is what it is.
I often wonder if Shawn thinks about my past at all and if I have a "one that got away."
Well, no, I do not. Absolutely not.
I was treated very badly by all the boys I dated in the past (abused, even), and I can honestly say I have truly achieved the opposite feeling of love for every single one of them: not hate, but ambivalence.
Hate means you still care. Ambivalence says I don't care.
I care for damn near everything, but I just equally don'tgive a shit concern myself whether they are ALL alive or dead. Either way, I really would not care. I would not cry, I would not be happy.
I just wouldn't care.
They, to me, are now simply "Somebody that I used to Know."
Minus the part where I still care so much that I write a song about any of them... That song is acutally about me and how I treated all thosepieces boys after breaking up. lol
I have had more relationships, but I can tell you more isn't "better." It just is what it is.
I often wonder if Shawn thinks about my past at all and if I have a "one that got away."
Well, no, I do not. Absolutely not.
I was treated very badly by all the boys I dated in the past (abused, even), and I can honestly say I have truly achieved the opposite feeling of love for every single one of them: not hate, but ambivalence.
Hate means you still care. Ambivalence says I don't care.
I care for damn near everything, but I just equally don't
I just wouldn't care.
They, to me, are now simply "Somebody that I used to Know."
Minus the part where I still care so much that I write a song about any of them... That song is acutally about me and how I treated all those
Lol....interesting song!
ReplyDeleteYou are so strong to come through those experiences and be the positive, inspiring person that you are. I have people in my "past" that I feel this way about, too -- not people I dated, but certain family members and relatives who are just abusive, negative people. Good riddance to them!
ReplyDelete@Heather I appreciate that. I don't agree with anyone staying around people who treat them badly, related or not.
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