Good morning and happy Monday once again.
On Friday I mentioned that I felt like I didn't want to do fashion week anymore... well, yes and no.
No, I am not looking forward to the time away from Shawn that this will require.
Yes, I can do this.
When I lie to myself I tell me "You don't want that anymore..." when I, in fact, do want something. It's just a defense mechanism I have to protect myself from rough paths, whether they're worth the journey or not. So this weekend when I had a dream that I was afraid to get on an airplane with Shawn, I had a lucid moment in the dream where I just told myself "Just do it." I remember getting onto the plane and then I woke up.
I looked up the symbolism of Airplanes in dreams on dreammoods.com:
Wish me the best, no matter what that might mean...
On Friday I mentioned that I felt like I didn't want to do fashion week anymore... well, yes and no.
No, I am not looking forward to the time away from Shawn that this will require.
Yes, I can do this.
When I lie to myself I tell me "You don't want that anymore..." when I, in fact, do want something. It's just a defense mechanism I have to protect myself from rough paths, whether they're worth the journey or not. So this weekend when I had a dream that I was afraid to get on an airplane with Shawn, I had a lucid moment in the dream where I just told myself "Just do it." I remember getting onto the plane and then I woke up.
I looked up the symbolism of Airplanes in dreams on dreammoods.com:
AirplanesSo maybe this Fashion Week thing will be good for me... or maybe my subconscious is finalizing my self-confidence I just found in my future-mommy skills. In any case I finished the sketches of the outfits I committed to on my application for the show in case I get called for an interview by next week.
To see an airplane in your dream indicates that you will overcome your obstacles and rise to a new level of prominence and status. You may experience a higher consciousness, new-found freedom and greater awareness. Perhaps you need to gain a better perspective or wider view on something. If the airplane is taking off, then it suggests that an idea or plan is about to "take off" and be put into action. It may also represent your need to get away and escape from your daily life.
Wish me the best, no matter what that might mean...
Stumble it!
3 comments:
I am so proud of you, Hillary! I've at times felt that I don't want to be a writer anymore because of all the challenges and fears of failing. No matter what happens next, you have already overcome the hardest part -- making the decision and getting started.
@Heather, thank you. Knowing that even you get scared sometimes when you are an amazing writer helps me to feel like maybe I am a rock star... :o)
I know exactly what you mean. I think it's only natural to second-guess yourself sometimes. I know I've done it a lot. It shows we're human.
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