It's Friday, I'm in LoVE! #33

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I'm so, so glad it is Friday! I have a lot to look forward to today and this weekend!

• Massage with Shawn tonight at Oasis
• Fire Spinning Show
• 2nd Full Moon in August is tonight! Technically not a true blue moon, but still cool.

So today I look back on the week and remember some reasons I love myself:

1. My hair is soooo pretty today. I might do a DIY hair post on it.
2. When people try to say mean things it doesn't make a reaction in me like it used to anymore.
3. I love that pug.
4. I AM NOT CHARTING OR TEMPING OR ANYTHING. Sorry, but that's a big deal!
5. I have been trying to make sure Shawn knows how much I love him.
6. I'm being gentler with myself.
7. I'm changing one of my behavior patterns that deprives me of being all, "DAMN MY LIFE IS AWESOME." Cuz it is, really.

Have a nice (hopefully) 3-day weekend, everyone! You know how we loooove our Mondays (1, 2) off!

Today in Photos

I'm stealing Melissa's blog feature idea today and posting how I feel in photos.
This cycle was apparently not the one, though my body tells me we're getting close now.

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TMI Post #2: Late... Not the good kind.

If you're following along on the Baby Journey, you may know that at this time last month we were already in the two week wait before taking a pregnancy test.


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This month, we're still not quite there yet.

Bobble Dots!

Yesterday I mentioned that the 2nd hoodie I have made for us to save is sized 8 months. I am making it with pink + gray ombre yarn and texturing it with little bobble polka dots.

I love how the variegated yarn kind of makes diagonal "stripes" across the pieces.

Mmm so cute!!! Even if we don't get lucky at baby lottery for another 2 months this would look great on a little gal in February, too. :o)

See what I did there?Yeh. Doin' well.

Better.

Sorry for the cryptic bit of sad yesterday... had a bad babycrack day.

Anyway, the more and more we crunch numbers the more we see how much easier saving money and buying baby things will be after August.

In smaller and yet smaller sizes I keep making more baby hoodies for us to save. 9-months might be too big to use in December if we got pregnant this month. I might even have the baby on my birthday if this cycle works out. So now I'm working on an 8-month sized hoodie. It's pink-to-gray ombre stripes with little "bobble" polka dots. I don't have a picture yet, but it's textured like this:

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And colored like this:


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The hood is almost done; I'll try to post pictures tomorrow.
In the meantime, Shawn is trying to figure out where we are going on vacation very soon, and I am not sharing after the Chicago-Surprise he pulled on me. He will have to just WAIT. :o)

It's Friday, I'm in LoVE! #26

Then only thing keeping me from writing this post entirely out of obscenities (or at least the first paragraph) is the fact that I can get drunk tonight.

Yup, the whooooore showed up.


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Firstly, please don't tell me you're sorry; I know you are and I love you, but hearing this has just been making me well up and throw shit today. Women are wired to agree and my estrogen is very high right now, so if you're sorry, then I'll be sorry and I don't want to be! Instead, leave me a comment with an activity I couldn't do if I were pregnant.

I honestly did really well this morning when I woke up to her ugly ass face. I can handle either outcome but not knowing is the WORST.

So today I love me because:

1. I'm getting drunk. All weekend.
2. I'm elbows-deep in crochet baby hoodies
3. I'm making a hoodie for the surprise-pregnant people at work. 7 weeks ago I was bitter.
4. I'm really happy for the women who got pregnant this month that I talk to on fertility websites. Really. Jealous, but genuinely happy for them.
5. I love my cats.
6. I'm going to try to love Peach better. She's just soooo damn crazy all the time.
7. I'm letting myself feel however I want today.

Have a nice weekend.

It's Friday, I'm in LoVE! #24

What a fast week! I'll make this post fast, too.



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I love me today because:

1. Pictures like the one above are making me cry today... in a happy way. I can't wait to make Shawn a daddy.
2. This is week 2 that I have been walking and doing yoga; now I do both everyday!
3. I didn't even THINK about going to the hiding place to use an OPK.
4. I am happy... and I'm still waiting to bust an egg this month. Success!

Happy weekend everybody.

Constructive vs. Destructive

CAUTION: Post content briefly mentions "pee sticks" and ovulation.

The new moon came and went yesterday. This time of the month is a good time to "work in" what we have learned recently and to toss out that which does us no good.
Over the last month we have tossed out the boy baby names (sorry guys), the self-censorship that feels "safe," and the last bits of self-dishonesty I hope to incur. I also tossed out something that I haven't shared yet: OPK's. I wasn't sure what they would bring me, but I thougth they would help (or at least couldn't hurt). I thought I was being constructive.
OPK's look like home pregnancy tests (HPT's) but instead they indicate that ovulation is imminent (in 12-36 hours). Also unlike HPT's a line is not a line on OPK's: it must be a dark line to be "positive."

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After 8 days of trying these mo-fo's I have had it. These bishes [sic] are destructive to me.You'd think I was getting a negative HPT with every negative OPK. Some were darker than others, leading me down the road to the crazy-town where they wield rulers marked with millimeters and measure just what perecentage of the test line is as dark or darker than the control line. 50%? TEST AGAIN!!!
So none of that. I went home, went to my 24-packs of OPK's, and effing HID THEM from myself.

I proceeded to do yoga for almost an hour. Now that's constructive. I also went to fetch my yarn I sourced after designing future-baby a hoodie, and started the damn thing. I finished it, too. Constructive, also.

Should I get more yarn to make a pocket?

Yes. Yes, I should...



I felt guilty starting and finishing a project that I have only had on my plate for a little over a month when I have soooo many others to finish, but I had a block in my creativity from not letting myself make this. So all of you that have slippers, illustrations, and other goodies and bits coming to you: lo, I have not forgotten. Oh, no. It's just taking me FOREVAR. But one day you'll go to your mailbox and you'll be pleasantly surprised. Promise.