"Tomorrow's" Post

So last week when I posted that I would be back the next day to tell you how my life is changing, more changed. And you should also know that nowadays tomorrow = in 4 days. This series of serious posts will keep coming. I just feel like the readers I have now I can be open with, and I will share what is changing with me to those who wish to read it and share in it.

I want to start by saying most of my transformation over the last year has been spiritual and very personal. And I want anyone to know whether you find yourself affiliated with an organized religion; a God; a goddess; both/many of each; or with no religions/religious feelings at all, be close to your beliefs. Know them inside and out, and try to listen to what life is teaching us always at the same time. Being able to think about my beliefs/values to myself and walking each footstep whle being conscious of them makes me happy. My mind is busy with positive thoughts when I am idle. I feel much healthier, much more "me," and much "clearer" everyday.

And Love yourself. Above all other "things" and people. Love yourself.
If you are like me and quick to love people and to forgive them (or at least to forget), you may realize as I have in the last couple of weeks, that I & I do not love myself, nor forgive myself as easily.
And why?!
Why do I do that to myself? And why do I wait for others to "deem" me things I want to be? When did this happen? If Whatever-made-me or Whoever-made-me loves me enough to have me wake up today to do something, then why do I not feel worthy of being pretty?
Or a fashion designer Monday, and a wedding designer Friday?
Why am I waiting for someone to tell me what my destiny is?

Lots of questions. No answers to most... yet.
But I have a feeling that these answers come out of loving yourself enough to be honest with yourself. When I forget how special I really am, what I can really do and how beautiful I am *inside* and out, I do the most damage to myself. For every negative thought I create about myself, I do more damage than any painful memory of past wrongs done to me by others.
In my heart I am a creation of Jah and when I was made he held me, loved me more than is imaginable, and then set me out into the Universe to do what it is I am here for. The best I can do in return is keep the love inside me, that he gave me, and radiate it like sunshine from the inside out. Love is the greatest gift. Evar. Give it to yourself, then give it to the world.

Love everything.
I love me. And I love you.

Yes, you.