You Can't Always Get What You Want...

I realized a great many things this weekend, and then this morning as I began to incorporate them into myself, I received a phone call from the Doctor. It has only been 3 days since my appointment. But, yes.

My yes has come.

Yes, I am healthy enough to have a baby now.

I have no more cysts, no more precancerous cells and no more CIN1. I can have a baby!

I had immense faith that I would heal, but I didn't know if it would be "on time..." On my time is what I should say. I hardly ever get what I want when I want it. I either require growth, time, or both when they are one and the same. As soon as I want something I start to work towards it only for me to be set back waiting, waiting, waiting. This time is different, at this stage anyway.

I was running out of my Pill and I had no prescription. The doctor had me on some different than my old kind to see if it would help the cyst shrink before surgery. Now they are gone, and I have gotten this call.

Meant to be? Maybe. Feels that way...

Is it bad that I'm now way more excited about the Offbeat Mama meetup that I can be one?

Is it bad I can't stop happycrying? If it is, I don't care. I can't help that one!

Word

KRAMER: Do you ever yearn?
GEORGE: Yearn? Do I yearn?
KRAMER: I yearn.
GEORGE: You yearn.
KRAMER: Oh, yes. Yes, I yearn. Often, I...I sit...and yearn. Have you yearned?
GEORGE: Well, not recently. I craved. I crave all the time, constant craving...but I haven't yearned.
KRAMER (in disgust): Look at you.

It's Friday, I'm in LoVE! #17

Happy, happy Friday to you!

After being in Chicago last week I'm glad to be back in the swing of our routine. Here's the Friday post that is long overdue!

Today I love me because:

1. I haven't heard anything about the job I want but I'm staying positive.
2. If I don't make an interview or if I interview and don't get chosen, I am going headfirst into Mama-mode by sewing cloth diapers and making clothes.
3. I write to my congressmen and -women often. And the President, too.
4. I've been making a lot of good food choices lately.
5. I have been a lot less hard on myself lately. Still not perfect, but who is?
6. I'm hosting an Offbeat Mama meetup here in Omaha next month with a local gal.

I really love Shawn, too. I mean, he planned a trip, saved the money for it, and put together care for the animals on his own just for my birthday. He had this planned for months and I didn't know. In honor of the trip I will be featuring some extra posts next week about our CTA adventures and such. Have a great, safe weekend!

Fantasy Closet 4/26/12

Fantasy Closet 4/26/12 by hilljo featuring long sleeve tops

Future Baby is included on this one. I had a follow-up appointment at the Doctor's today to see if I am healthy enough to get pregnant now after healing from surgery. Paps aren't fun but I got through it and now we wait for 5 days on results. Pray/Hope/Meditate for me!!!

Love.

My Birthday

Thanks to blogger (for some reason!!!) my scheduled posts did not publish so you all missed out on me raving and being a wildly crazy HiLLjO on my birthday. Yesterday I turned 24!

I felt like crap with a migraine most of the day but after dinner time I felt better and we were even able to go out to dinner at a new Mexican place. After that Shawn bought me a big piece my favorite kind of cake from a local bakery and we went home.

Over the weekend Shawn pulled a Calgon Moment and took me the eff away. He is the best husband to me!!! I now know the meaning of being whisked off your feet! He had me pack stylish clothes for both warm and cool weather on Friday, all the while I begged to know why... and he refused. We took the pug to his parents' house that night so they could watch her and they all knew where we were going except me! My mom was sending me cryptic texts to pack for Paris, bring sexy dresses, etc. I was nervous I wasn't packed well enough so I kept packing and packing. By the time we had packed and gotten ready I had been told we were going to Denver, Paris, Chicago and maybe even Kansas City. Oh, and Minnesota. I was... confused.
Shawn woke us up at 6AM on SATURDAY morning to leave. I wore pajamas and we headed down the road, me dozing off and on. I woke up when we were in Iowa and asked where we were going (again) but I was given no genuine clues. The exits started to be labeled "Minneapolis, Chicago, Kansas City" and I asked point-blankly if Chicago was our destination, Shawn said "No." I was dissapointed; I love Chicago!!! About 200 miles later I lead him through a distracting discussion that lead him to divulge the destination on accident: (I was happy) Chicago!
Once we arrived, Shawn drove us to a motel DOWNTOWN! He got us there, made arrangements for the animals, and booked a room on his own JUST FOR ME. We spent Saturday, Sunday and Monday there, arriving back in Omaha around 2AM on my birthday yesterday morning. It. Was. Great.



Driving into the City



Wrigley Field!

Us in front of Wrigley

 

THE BEAN (see the skyline?!)

 

Millenium Park



Going to the Shedd Aquarium on Lake Michigan

 

Curly anemone appendages at the Shedd



Hard Rock Cafe Chicago

 We went to Chinatown there, too and we picked up a Maneki Neko. I have been looking for one forever!!! They remind us of Mama Kitty, they're cute, and they're "good luck." We did so many things while we were there! Have you ever gone?!