Hang in There, Baby!

No news(usually)=good news, but in my case: no blog news=no news.

Everywhere I look are 13's... I know I am doing right by myself no matter what, I just have to have faith and well,

I also found a chart that made me feel SO much better about levels of pregnancy hormone in your body based on days past ovulation (DPO). Apparently if you have no AF (Aunt Flo!) and it's not 18DPO, you're not out of the game! YAY!


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Today I had to work and I blasted through too much of today's and tomorrow's work in the first hour I was here... WOMP. So I'm keeping myself busy with music and finding positive things like the kitty picture and Lady Gaga Youtube videos. My ascendant horoscope:

"If you're either worrying about the future or feeling guilty about the past, you're not enjoying the moment!"

Only 2 months ago I didn't even know if we could try to have children. We've come a long way.

"...it's alright, a-alright
Just dance, gonna be okay, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, gonna be okay, d-d-d-dance
Dance, dance, just, j-j-just dance."

TTC Adventure #2: The Two Week Wait

Here we are, damn-near smack in the middle of something people charting/trying to conceive call the "Two Week Wait" "2WW" or "hell."
All month you wait to release an egg, then the rest of the month you wait to pee on a stick. What's the big deal? It's 2 weeks right? WRONG. During this time, some women get a little--crazed. I could almost be included in that if I weren't keeping myself so darn Zen constantly and dismissing any creeping negative thoughts. Learning about fertility astrology to keep myself entertained in a proactive-feeling way helps... that and chart-staring (NOT).

"WHY WON'T THE SECRET PREGNANCY CODE IN MY BBT CHART APPEAR?!"

Symptom-charting replaces OPK's and everything seems like it could be an indicator of pregnancy. Gas? Write it down!!!
I'm only doing this during the day when I'm not home and I find myself bored. Then at home I pretty much "ground" myself like I did from Pinterest because that worked; this is, too.

Some also start testing too early with the home pregnancy tests and continue to test everyday of the 2WW. I already know I cannot do that to myself; BFN's DESTROY ME.
I also decided that "drinking 'til it's pink" is not for me, either. I did not have a margarita last night when we were out for Mexican food and Shawn had one. I didn't even ask or have a sip. It's not "good" or "bad," nor is it "easy" or "hard." It's just my choice.

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So since my parents will be out of town until the 2WW is over (and that is not conducive to a newsbreaking meeting to all potential future grandparents), I am waiting. Some days I am more patient than others... today: eh.  Hang in there with me, won't you?

I have a Silver Lining today...

Back in August I shared with you that I have 2 Ovarian Cysts. They were benign, thank Jah, but they cause me a great deal of pain on a weekly basis, especially the right side. I have to take nasty pain medication and hope that it works without making me ill. It's vicious.

2 weeks ago it was so bad on my right side that I had to call into work one day and leave early another day because I couldn't function with the severity of the pain. I wasn't supposed to have my follow-up visit after September until right before my birthday this year in April but I couldn't wait. They scheduled for me to come in today.

I have done so much research on how to shrink my cysts without surgery and I've taken leaps and bounds into being proactive about healing myself.

We have cut out all beef and other hormone-containing foods. Now we eat meat 3 times a week and the meats we choose are either fish, chicken or wild game that has only been butchered. Vegetables fill our plates for other meals and I drink a crapton of water as well.

Not only are the changes we have made food-related, but stress-related as well: we meditate daily and we work out at least 3 times a week. This helps to manage our stress and boost our endorphins, along with all the other benefits of movin' your body.

So this pain 2 weeks ago was... frustrating. Trying so hard to just get seemingly nowhere is hard.

Today at the doctor we discussed the pain and its frequency and symptoms and we're trying different pain meds and a lower hormone OC from the one I currently use. The doctor was curious to see if the cyst had changed since the pain is increasing in intensity so I agreed to wait for and hour and a half to be ultrasounded. I'd like to see that too, yeah.

Guess what?

One is gone. Disappeared. Poof. Vanished.

The other ugly MF'er is still there and is stable but unchanged. And it was decided that it is not even on my ovary specifically, but next to it. It isn't hurting my ovary!

I really don't care that I have a ping pong sized mass in there anymore. I know what I am doing is helping, especially the positive thinking part. We're going to discuss laproscopically draining the 2" mass on my right side since it is causing me more problems than I have shared here, so hopefully I'll have an update on that by the end of the month!
Thank you for reading! Make sure you talk to a woman you love about Ovarian Cancer. It's important!